Friday, April 15, 2011

What I've learned: Butterflies

I've talked about butterflies before. I'll be honest - I really thought I'd found them with Big. I once described him as someone who made me happy just by being around, who was the first person I thought to call with good or bad news, and who I often couldn't wait to see.

But...I think there might have been something missing. I think my feelings for Big developed over time - which is great, don't get me wrong. But there was no initial "spark." You know, that out-of-the-gate feeling that makes you catch your breath just a little, and keeps you smiling for days?

I'll be honest - I never had that with 28 Year Old, either. I liked him - a lot. But it was never an intense attraction, or an I-can't-wait-to-see-him sorta thing. Thing is - since I hadn't felt it before, I didn't feel like I was missing anything. I thought the spark, or attraction or whatever you want to call it, was something that just built over time for me.

Until I felt it with Crush. We went on a date last week, and the minute I saw him - I felt it. It was even more intense when his knee brushed mine, or my hand brushed his arm. A-ma-zing.

I don't know what's going to happen with Crush. But I have learned this: That feeling isn't something I'll ever do without again.


  1. Once you have it it's hard to ever give up.

    So glad you found it.

  2. Wait, what?!?! You went on a date with Crush??!?! How did I miss this?!? I hope it was fantastic :) And...yay for butterflies! They are pretty great ;)

  3. Cute~Ella - Thanks. :)

    Autumn - I did. Sort of quietly. It was actually two weeks ago Sat (tomorrow). We haven't had a second date yet, but I'm hoping maybe soon? Not really sure how interested he is, though I thought the date went well. Guess we'll see. :)

  4. It's such a good feeling to really.. 'fancy' someone. Hope the next date goes just as well ;-).