There is a handful of people who know me in real life, who know who Big, and even 28YO, are, and know why I started this blog. Some actually read the blog - others just know me and know there's a blog out there.
A few of them really "get" why I blog about the whole thing. Others just think I write it for revenge, or to be mean, or whatever. That's never been the case. I knew there would be a lesson, and for me, writing is the easiest way to learn. Yes, I could have journaled privately - but that wouldn't have gotten reactions or feedback from objective readers.
It also occurred to me that maybe - just maybe - the blog might be helpful to someone else. That another woman, in a similar situation, would stumble upon this blog, read my story - and find some comfort in knowing that she wasn't the only one, that she wasn't stupid and that she wasn't crazy. Silly, right?
So, last week I posted about my love cleanse. I didn't invent the idea, so to give credit where it's due, I linked to the original post where I found the idea, and in my tweet, I mentioned the person who wrote the post. Usually, that'll get a "thanks" on twitter. In this case - it got me a follow back. From The Single Woman - someone who should be every single gal's idol, in my opinion. I was incredibly excited - as my friend can tell you.
If you know anything about twitter, you know it's a great way for people to find others with similar interests, concerns, situations, etc. I got a few follows after The Single Woman found me - and one came from a woman who was going through something similar. And she wrote me the nicest email.
She told me a bit of her own story, which I won't share with you here. There were definitely some similarities between her experience and mine. At the end of her email she said: Thank you. Thank you for sharing.
I should mention that this email came on what was a terrible day for me. But when I opened it, and saw that someone had found my blog, and it was helpful to her - so much so that she took the time to email me and say thank you - I burst into some of the happiest tears I've ever cried.
People can think, or say, whatever they want about me, or this blog. The thought that, even for just a second, this blog made someone's life just a little bit better is exactly the reason I keep it going.
So thank you.