I haven't visited a dating website, or flirted with anyone online (or in person). I haven't met anyone new. I haven't
I learned some things about myself - that I may have been using relationships as an excuse, or making excuses in my relationships. I definitely liked the guys I was dating, and I really believe I was in love with Big - but that doesn't mean it was meant to be forever, and I've accepted that.
They were good guys. I was lucky to have met them, and I have no regrets.
Still, now I'm wondering - do I want to start dating again? Or should I keep this love cleanse thing going? Part of me is worried that if I don't get back into things, I'll forget how to date. I'll get so used to being on my own, it'll get harder and harder to let someone else in. Another part of me doesn't feel like I'm done; I started some great changes, and I've got some momentum going - but I still have a lot to do. I don't want to lose myself again.
So what do I do? Is there balance?