There are certain lessons I don't think I'll ever learn. Period. Some are lessons I'm not even sure I want to learn.
First, I met TG, who I really, really like. Then, I ended up meeting a couple more guys, with whom I felt no connection. One of them must have felt the same - and he just faded away, which was fine. The other liked me - if you know me or follow this blog regularly, you know that really almost never happens.
I was forced into a situation that I don't like, and have only been in a couple times before - I had to tell someone his feelings for me were not mutual. I don't like doing that - because I don't like having it done to me.
But as much as I dislike that talk - I hate the "fade away" even more. You know, where you just ignore the person and hope they go away? If it's mutual, and we never call each other again (like Pepe) that's fine. But if one person is still contacting the other, who knows that the feelings aren't there, I think that person should fess up.
I think it's because I like closure. I also like knowing that I did what I could, and was honest. So, I expect the same from others. I can't very well expect others to treat me with respect I'm not willing to show them, so I had to fess up to Sean. Someone who I really respect commented she thought I did the right thing. Treat others the way you want to be treated - cliché or not, it's right.
Now, I'm starting to notice TG pulling away a bit. He invited me out last week, last minute. Again, we had a nice time, and again, he said he wanted to keep seeing me. I emailed him with a link to a show I was thinking about catching - and there was no response. Then I texted a few days later to invite him out - and I got, "Sorry, I can't tonight."
Then nothing. For several days. Finally, I sent a friendly, hi-how-are-you? type message and suggested he let me know if he wanted to go out again. I got a ...wishy-washy response. "I'll let you know. My schedule is crazy. Hopefully we can do something this weekend."
Is he blowing me off? Or am I reading too much into this?
There's a part of me who wishes I could just walk away from someone - who could just let it go, and not have to find out. But I suppose, if I could do that, I'd be the person who could just ignore the nice guy.
I don't want that to be my karma.